Yes! It is September already >__<> Ramdom thing is I feel so great that I told all my secret to my close friend, Linda! Now I truly wish she would be with and talk to me . She is busy with baby sitting and school studies.. it just same as Maria~ Hahahaah, darn bleh awkward laughed! I am terrible at working something and sometimes I just do not quite understand that I supposed to mark the good answer in the scantron ,but I ended marked on the wrong ones. =__= ..then ended up getting a C- ~ SHIT! I really do not want to think about love but in a while the loneliness and sourness of my heart came out . It made me desire of wanting someone to ask me out again . HAHA! It is totally fine even though that person is not the person I want to be with and not really in love with him~ I was so not graceful that I watched hentai yesterday and therefore .. I thought I could have some fun with my best guy friend which I know he will not mind. Aiya! It cannot done .. it would be like a bitch motive lol Haha Really in my emotional state right now is I kinda feel like I wanna go to the toliet already ... mmm I did go to there but I just cannot do the big business lol ..I guess I like to hold it Bleh bleh ... why do I feel painful that someone lied to me? even though that lied was for my own good. I just cannot accept it . Well seeing that guy reaction that he knew he was lying to me of something in his head. I felt the escatsy on that moment. I can ask myself do i treat him nice as really nice? I can say I do!! Oh well, it is alright .. i just will not talk to him anymore. Also , it might be correcto that I am an annoying person through the guy I really liked ... I will try to fix that ! XD SIGH! Oh yeah , I am too discrimminated toward him as the guy who constanly speak, chat with me any time on the night time .. Doesn't he have others friend to talk with? Ah!! He is kinda somewhat get in my nerve. Hmm! I am timid that I do not dare to say " Can you stop talking to me?" I do not like to hurt others, but sometiems i did lol Yes I'm an irony girl ..hahaha?! hmm i kinda embarrass of writing the blog when people walks by in the library hall computer~ I am thinking positive , i still have my smile ..haha even thought i made myself in a miserable situation ..sometimes, not always!!~ bleh! XP >.>
