I didn't expect my few days going to be like this bad. Have you ever get to a worse situation with your close new friend?! I did >__< I don't know anymore if it is worth it or not. A girl friend of mine doesn't want to talk to me . She is kinda bully me ..may be not ..Whenever I hang out with a Vietnamese girl , I treat them with my whole heart and I just end up hurting myself of broken our relationship. The story is this * She, me, and our friend's Linda came to my house and then having our lovely hot pot together. It was great until some point that girl told us her boyfriend lost his money. We felt sympathy of that, and after we finished eating .. we watched some youtubes videos. FROM the between that , she asked me to borrow forty bucks which I felt little stunned but still I let her have it. I am kinda little bit not happy right now and half sleepy to right on and on ...so I would keep this and type this later hehe XPNow I'm back lol . May be I don't know how to be a good friend to others?! I'm dumb that I just blurted out random things about other's personalities huh?! =/ On the moment I asked back when that person gave back my money ... it doesn't me she has to return it right away? I just deadly want an answer . I wasn't positively think I don't believe her. I wasn't do it right of comment my friend's qualities to the other's friend of our ~? Sigh! Another miserable bad happen was a guy friend could actually ditched me twice. Am I that ignorant, terrible to hang out with you? Like my mother said to me yesterday.. may be I shouldn't treat my friend in my whole heart? nor being idiot of talking about other's weakness. I got scolded just cause I went home late of hung out with my new friends. I still won't get mad and don't want to hang out with anymore. I was ending up being told by a friend said " I don't want to hang out with you anymore.", and YEs, she provided the money back to me . During the time I walked home , I was surely damn unhappy. Was it horrible to speak it up to your other friend? I just wanted someone to listen to my story so I chose my long time bff~ My bff said she doesn't worth it for you to cry over her. LOL However.. I did ..I was truly treat her with my whole heart , and greatness. Hah! She was okay of not liking how I treat her. I won't curse her. I am totally a weak girl ..I won't beg for forgiveness , fight back my right.. may be i'm wrong too, and If i really ask for forgiveness, it seems like I'm a low friend . I need some pride. Hm..What the freaking point of handing the jeans she doesn't want? Am I a garbager, begger? When she thinks she doesn't want to me anymore , shouldn't she just put away that sympathy of handing me the jerseys? I should care less, and tell myself it is fine to lose this friend . =] I always being treat bad any Vietnamese girls I met anyway lol~ My Yan said I was naive to cry over that but not soft-hearted person .. haha ^^;; I feel sorry of Linda being the middle person from now on . Eh , My mommy said I should return back the jeans to her , but I was like she doesn't want to me ..why should I go up to her and make the awkwaness out?! Sighed.. HEHE, I'm gonna share my long time ago journal from my winter's acting class XP I felt anxious of looking forward what I had to do in the first day of my 1st winter clas. My opinion of getting in this Theater Art is memorization , but I did not expect myself that I would gain the courage, fear in front of the audiences. The lesson of what we did make me feel one hundred percent interesting . I mean , I was totally glad that I came early of the first day in this class. I want to give me great expression to Mister Larry. I also haven't thought it is okay to feel uncomfortable in the stage. I really wish I would conquer the nervousness of speaking loudly, clearly during the performance. I felt extremely surprise that Mr. Larry says the " F' words in the few times. You are very outstanding of what you were tellig us; the only thing was your lectures are little bit bored me out. I still like you already. You are awesome of saying you have to accept what you are, and it is find to judge people. Well, I judge most people in their different appreances. It is just the matter if I say them face to face to the person I talk with instead I talk to other person behind their back which I know it is bad , but I didn't do it ofter :P. I am 100% nice person who won't going to criticize others ( in my heart I will or secrelly I will infront of my close friends). Learning what is OBJECTIVE is fun. ^__^
