Eh, I'm all better .. I am one hundred percent sure of that. She doesn't worth for me to think of her. I am totally fine without that kind of friend. :D Hmm.. I realize it is alright not to talk with our friend in ample times. I was stupid that I didn't dropped the computer class so I got the F in that class. -__- Ahh!! Yea, first F in my GPA, and one depress thing was I got a F in my first test in Biochem's test. Haha Lucky, a nice classmate says about studying groups or go to the tutor on Mon & Weds..something like that =] Yai! I have some help now lol. Um.. I was depressed that some of the friends don't want to talk to me ,but I just think it is as a that mean friend. If they won't wanna talk to me , I would just not care about them & not talk with them. I dislike to waste my time of caring about the people who don't want to play, talk with me. I was thinking " What the heck do they think me as , a random friend?! If they like to , they will invite you to go somewhere , and going to ask you to do something for them. I truly think I'm not your maid or something?! I am tiring of desiring chatting with them online. I am postive that I don't need them. :] Hehe! I feel enjoyful of meeting a sweet friend's Linda. She is such a good friend; she said she won't judge and won't say some horrible things to me . When I was with her, I felt truly happiness. Last Saturday, we were about to hang out to Downtown LA right?! However, I had to wait her in her car, and guess what? Her car was out of batter and had a slightly problem in it. She called her mother in New York to figure out how to fix the car , and then her mother said No idea. Her mom even yelled at her back which was sad to me. She was clumsy that she didn't turn off the lighthead's car. In other hand, she tried to call her dad to help her dad , and he said " she should wait one hour-thirty minutes so the car has battery back. However, We waited like that of time , it still hadn't work. She called him back , and told him what had happened! She told me he gonna come to our place to observe what was going on to it. Next , she also so funny that her daddy so strict that he doesn't adore her dress so sexy as a short short's jean . She needed me to buy her a pant for her , so she could change to a better one. We went to the Target to buy it. She didn't have enough money so I lent it to her. ^__^ I was fine with it, because I know she would return it, and I learn the lesson not ask it yet?! Hah! Now Her phone got broken ... it was difficult to contact her anyway~ sigh! MOney won't hurt our friendship .. I hope! Btw, that damn Ruby , girl told Linda to tell me that I should change my personality XP Tssk! I was like Why the freak I should change my personality for her? I didn't do anything wrong; I stay strong in my position of not going to talk to her & apologize to her. It is a pride thing lol :] Yeah ahaha . Ayaiyai! Yesterday was a extremely strange ,cold day. May be , I was kinda regret of resting in the lounge room . I got invited to join the KCC o.oll group which is like a group believing GOD. I.. only believe it little bit like my ethnicity's Buddhist. We should trust ourselves more lol :] Would God really help us if we pray a lot? I don't freaking think so . XP I have different opinion on that. I do faithful on the mircale on god ,but it just rarely haha~ I was hanging out with those Korean Christian people . They are all nice, but I found I was 90% bored in there. I dislike their questions to me . Was I too nice of not making an excuse to leave right away, and constanly had some conversations with them like two hours . HAH! >__< One dude even told me to follow the regulation as a rule * You can't date until you been there like 3 years. * X] His English was little hard to comprehend b/c he said third years instead of three years lmao XP They were scared me off . Would I really contribute to their nice group? I truly obsolutely say to myself No thanks. I was too nice to give out the phone number, email too xD Whatever... JUST I'm too naive, idiotic to refuse them .. Lala~ Also I declare myself I will try to be more serious ,and less act goofy. OH YEah... Another naive thing , I kinda silly of wanna do a surgery on my throat to make my voice sounds better. I just don't like my voice at much. x___x terrible voice when I heard back my own voice in my cell phone . Um THAT's It for now.. p.s i gotta conquer of doing well in my speech class.

posted at 5:32 PM

I didn't expect my few days going to be like this bad. Have you ever get to a worse situation with your close new friend?! I did >__< I don't know anymore if it is worth it or not. A girl friend of mine doesn't want to talk to me . She is kinda bully me ..may be not ..Whenever I hang out with a Vietnamese girl , I treat them with my whole heart and I just end up hurting myself of broken our relationship. The story is this * She, me, and our friend's Linda came to my house and then having our lovely hot pot together. It was great until some point that girl told us her boyfriend lost his money. We felt sympathy of that, and after we finished eating .. we watched some youtubes videos. FROM the between that , she asked me to borrow forty bucks which I felt little stunned but still I let her have it. I am kinda little bit not happy right now and half sleepy to right on and on ...so I would keep this and type this later hehe XPNow I'm back lol . May be I don't know how to be a good friend to others?! I'm dumb that I just blurted out random things about other's personalities huh?! =/ On the moment I asked back when that person gave back my money ... it doesn't me she has to return it right away? I just deadly want an answer . I wasn't positively think I don't believe her. I wasn't do it right of comment my friend's qualities to the other's friend of our ~? Sigh! Another miserable bad happen was a guy friend could actually ditched me twice. Am I that ignorant, terrible to hang out with you? Like my mother said to me yesterday.. may be I shouldn't treat my friend in my whole heart? nor being idiot of talking about other's weakness. I got scolded just cause I went home late of hung out with my new friends. I still won't get mad and don't want to hang out with anymore. I was ending up being told by a friend said " I don't want to hang out with you anymore.", and YEs, she provided the money back to me . During the time I walked home , I was surely damn unhappy. Was it horrible to speak it up to your other friend? I just wanted someone to listen to my story so I chose my long time bff~ My bff said she doesn't worth it for you to cry over her. LOL However.. I did ..I was truly treat her with my whole heart , and greatness. Hah! She was okay of not liking how I treat her. I won't curse her. I am totally a weak girl ..I won't beg for forgiveness , fight back my right.. may be i'm wrong too, and If i really ask for forgiveness, it seems like I'm a low friend . I need some pride. Hm..What the freaking point of handing the jeans she doesn't want? Am I a garbager, begger? When she thinks she doesn't want to me anymore , shouldn't she just put away that sympathy of handing me the jerseys? I should care less, and tell myself it is fine to lose this friend . =] I always being treat bad any Vietnamese girls I met anyway lol~ My Yan said I was naive to cry over that but not soft-hearted person .. haha ^^;; I feel sorry of Linda being the middle person from now on . Eh , My mommy said I should return back the jeans to her , but I was like she doesn't want to me ..why should I go up to her and make the awkwaness out?! Sighed.. HEHE, I'm gonna share my long time ago journal from my winter's acting class XP I felt anxious of looking forward what I had to do in the first day of my 1st winter clas. My opinion of getting in this Theater Art is memorization , but I did not expect myself that I would gain the courage, fear in front of the audiences. The lesson of what we did make me feel one hundred percent interesting . I mean , I was totally glad that I came early of the first day in this class. I want to give me great expression to Mister Larry. I also haven't thought it is okay to feel uncomfortable in the stage. I really wish I would conquer the nervousness of speaking loudly, clearly during the performance. I felt extremely surprise that Mr. Larry says the " F' words in the few times. You are very outstanding of what you were tellig us; the only thing was your lectures are little bit bored me out. I still like you already. You are awesome of saying you have to accept what you are, and it is find to judge people. Well, I judge most people in their different appreances. It is just the matter if I say them face to face to the person I talk with instead I talk to other person behind their back which I know it is bad , but I didn't do it ofter :P. I am 100% nice person who won't going to criticize others ( in my heart I will or secrelly I will infront of my close friends). Learning what is OBJECTIVE is fun. ^__^

posted at 6:10 PM

Haha Before I type what i did or what happened in these few days. I want to write my scene of my Theater Art's class as an acting class. HEHe HEre I go
Cliff: Someday I'm gonna take you across in my truck.
Rose: Are you joking now?
Cliff: Hey
Rose: Do they allow that?
Cliff: It's my truck. I'll let you hold the crowbar.
Rose: Get out.
Cliff: Hey, just when you think you had it, you come around a mountain and the Pacific Ocean kicks you right in the eyeballs.
Rose: People always promise things, but they don't really mean it.
Cliff: Hey, once more: I'm not people. I'm me. And speaking of nothing in particular, you got a beautiful mouth, but the only thing I don't like about it is I'm not close enough ( He kisses her with a kind of sublimated violence, but breaks gently. Pause)
Rose: Thank you
Cliff: YOu don't have to say thank you when a man kisses you.
Rose: DO you have to make fun of everything I do?
Cliff: Hey.
Rose: What?
Cliff: You like me?
Rose: Yes
Cliff: I don't blame you. I'm a hellava guy . Hey , I need to hold you.
Rose: What for?
Cliff: I don't get much exercise.
Rose: Everybody wants to touch and say nice things.
Cliff: Hey, it's normal.
Rose: And then you never see them no more.
Cliff: It's natural.
Rose: Says who?
Cliff: The world.
Rose: If it's natural, what am I?
Cliff: You tell me
Rose: A freak?
Cliff: You said it, not me,
Rose: Alright, so I'm a freak.
Cliff: So what.
Rose: What do u mean so what?
Cliff: That's English for so what.
Rose: So that's true love.
Cliff: O don't make me barf. She was a true asshole.
Rose:When you love somebody, you don't curse or make fun and even when they cheat you make fool of yourself even if you have to sit in the snow and die.
Cliff: O, cut the shit huh? There's no such things as true love. True love's when you got a fat bankbook.
Rose: May be for some people.
Cliff: Hey, one thing counts out there, Rosieshmosie. Scratch! And you gotta leap in the fuckin dogfight and grab all you can grab. And while you're out grabbin it, true love's screwin the guy next door. And if you lost it, you get true love's consolation prize alimony payments! So don't hit me with this stale bag of wholesale pigshit about true love because I been there and I know better. ( Pause) All I said was I want to hold you and you gotta make a big deal.
Rose: It's not my fault I'm this way!
Cliff: Look, I don't want to hear about no bad childhood.
Rose: I have to be very careful because of my hemophilia.
Cliff: Your what?
Rose: I happen to have a very very rare blood disease. If I get cut I could bleed to death.
Cliff: This ain't happening.
Rose: Just alittle scratch bleeds for days! And If I get a deep cut, that's it.
Cliff: I said I want to hold you not bite you!
Rose: So I have to be very careful!
Cliff: So how's a flesh and blood man supposed to get near you? I talk . I draw blood. I touch, you go icy. I mean, hey may be we should carry this thing on over the telephone. Germless. And when it it starts to hurt you could hang up.
Rose: I don't have a phone.
Cliff: I'm not talking about phone! I'm talking about me and you! I'm here, you're there, and there's no wall between us except the one you keep building up in that head of yours!
Rose: I don't know what wall you're talking about!
CLiff: Hey, Rosie. I don't order a pound of nonpariels because I got a sweettooth. I didn't come up here to discuss Brenda or seaweed soup or homophillioes or dinosaurs or flamingoes. I came up here to be with you. You. And hold you. Make love to you.
Rose: (Pause) I don't want to cheat.
CLiff: So you do have a man, eh?
Rose: Yes.
Cliff: So why the fuck did you invite me up here.
Rose: And he doesn't curse or make fun or preten he wants to talk when he wants to touch and doesn't make fun.
Cliff: What's he, a priest? Sister ROse and Father Clean!
Rose: Shut up!
Cliff: What do you guys do for thrills?whip each other with rosaries?
ROse: Be quiet.
Cliff: Hallujah! Father Clean and the Boneless Sardine!
Rose: I hate you!
Cliff: O gosh! I think I'll go hang myself!
Rose: You're just like them!
Cliff: I think I'll go the zoo and stone a longlegged derrick!
Rose: Stop it!
Cliff: Or jump out the window! But how can I? Some whacko boarded it up and another whacko won't take it down!
Rose: Go to hell!
Cliff: You cursed! O, what a trashmouth! Mrs. Majusko! Call the Sanitation Department!
ROse: FUCK YOU!
Cliff: Rose, you don't watch your mouth, I'm leavin.
RoseL Now for the rest of my life, I could never say I never cursed!
Cliff: O big fuckin deal! That your only problem in life!You been cooped up too long, Rosie-dosie!
Rose: If I never met you , this would've never happened!
Cliff:If! If! If! If If! If my aunt had balls, she'd be my uncle! (PAuse) Well look, champs I was lookin for alittle wham-bam-thank-you-m;am, but I guess I turned over the wrong rock. So, catch you later.
Rose: Can I have your sweater?
Cliff: Come again?
Rose: Nevermind.
Cliff: NO no no no no . What did you ask me?
Rose: Nothing.... I was just ..... Nothing.
Cliff: COuld you have my sweater?
Rose: If you don't want it.
Cliff: Well, yeah. I was just about to toss it in the garbage on the way out.
Rose: YOu must think I'm crazy.
Cliff: Noooooooooooooooooooooo.
Rose: Nevermind.
Cliff: Can I ask what for?
Rose: I don't know. To remeber you by.
Cliff: Remember me by.
Rose: But nevermind
Cliff: It's my work sweater.
Rose: I should've never asked.
Cliff: It's dirty and I slepy in it. Blew my nose in it.
Rose: Nevermind.
Cliff: You don't want me to stay but you want to remember me by. That's one that goes way over my head, champ. So let's just leave it at that. Take good care of it. It's used to travelling across country at 65m.p.h.
Rose: THank you
Cliff: And be careful. It goes through amber lights.
Rose: THank you.
Cliff. It's 100% virgin wool. Meant to be . For you.
Rose: Thank you.
Cliff: The label fell out. But see this hole?
Rose : Yes?
Cliff: I burned it there so I know which's the front. BUt I don't want to assume anything, Rosie. Maybe you like the front on the back. Me myself, I like the front on the front.
Rose: Thank you.
Cliff: Rose?
Rose: YEah?
Cliff: Can I have your shoes?
Rose: I thought you was different.
Cliff: It was all in your head. Catch ya later.
Rose: Bye.
Cliff: Yeah.
Rose: Hope you get the new job.
Cliff: Yeah.
Rose: THink your truck's fixed?
Cliff: What's it matter?
Rose: Will you ever drive through Philadelphia again?
Cliff: Who knows?
Rose: Bye.
Cliff: YEah.
Rose: Thank you.
Cliff: Yeah.
Rose: Bye. Cliff?
Cliff: Yeah?
Rose: Will you be cold without your sweater?
Cliff: Me? COld? Hey, Rosie, you're lookin at the only surivivor of the Great Ice Age. ( Exit Cliff. His fooffalls fade down the stairwell. Rose rushes to the door.)
Rose: Cliff? ( Lights fade quickly)
YEs.. I was the one who acted the female's character named Rose . I was dumb enough to think I should prepare my prop as hight light my hair to color red. I was so silly that I was having crush and slowly liked the boy who acted Cliff J* . This partner is kinda good to remember all the lines out . =] I was totally amazed by that. I just think I would describe the same of how I see Love as my topic ...I wouldn't want sex with the male even thought he is the one I like. Oh Yes! Having the new classes in the spring is kinda nice , I guess lol! The freaking male teacher in my Speech gave a nice fat joke out that I was just late like five or six minutes . He was making a big reaction of telling me U can't be this class anymore. I had to look very depressing lol NO... ACtually, I was truly depressing ... XD LOL , Gosh! One of the freaking classmate said She's going to cry!! I was like Hell NO that I'm not going to cry XP . I just keep persuade him of providing the nice example of getting on time/early to that class. He somehow made me think of hiim as a cool, fun teacher. His look gives me an outstand, fun , and cool teacher to work with . However, IN the other hand.. the freaking Biology teacher is so damnn damn boring . He keeps speaking all the theory, and blapping out the chemistry's moleculars , atom things out which I wanna say it out in fron of the class " Hey, damn u ! I already learned it already.. " =/ Hmm~ WEll, It is 100% lucky that he doesn't give any homework beside telling us to buy book or print out the handouts . YEs ! I will do that.. got to ~ lol Hmm NOw I wanna say, Alvis is a jerk. lol I was thinking stupidy , wrong that I want to like him and date him which turn out FAILEd like Ruby said. X] AHaha !!! I was knowing the solution of that confession going to be in a bad result, but I didn't know that from this point.. He might be dislike me not picking up my called. I am assuming that I might be the annoying .. so no life that I have to call my guys friend in some often times . I will try to stop that action . Sigh! ONe big issue of the family that changed to careless thing .. haha~ XP I kinda don't get much of the big vocab or unfimilar words of my mother's letter job thing , so I was guessing something funny or not right, and told my father that it wasn't very a big deal . Then IN the few days Someone told him that it was a big deal of the matter in my mommy's job. She needed to go an appointmen as in a conflict application servicto renew the client whose she works with. They were making me called them so many times . HaHa I can't take it anymore that I threw some anger out and said I don't want to do it anymore XP :] BOoo Wisely my dad's friend chatted with my dad about those thing and said the people in chart of those service matter will send another letter to my mama again in the other day. HEhe! YEs! That is a good , relief new to me LOL :D . ... What happened next in my day was my friend rated my clothes style in a bad way . They consider some shirt and pants of mine aren't fashionable and wanna make a change over to me. Haha WEll.. YEah, I admit that some of it doesn't look good on me and doesn't attracts other much so Yes.. I will listen to them & try to wear those that look good on me. Hmm I kinda learn , acknowledge.. I am ignorant , idiotic enough to like someone who doesn't like me & having a cold heart inside ..and don't wanna open top me. Maybe.. I am really unattractive girl in some poiint lol .~ Just like one of my guy friend's Jeff said Let the guys come after you .." When it comes to your way, it is you .. If you chase it too much , you can't have it . " That would be true for my bad experience I think .. I would try try to wait and be more attractive from now lol .. Crazy huh ?! Well That is all i say for this one .. lol :] I am enjoying spending the time with my new friends * LInda & Ruby! hehe

posted at 12:23 AM