Am I a funny person to my friend ? I think so ! However, Sometimes...I don't kinda like that of a character so yea! It is such as uncomfortable that I might thought people would think that is weird and dun like me anymore if I act that way lol . And also I really not quite understand why I am so mind of what others think about me. Hah! I admit & agree that the way I dress ain't fashionable and match my age ahah sometimes tho' =/ Hmm~ Yes! It was over of my thought to that jerk, Hector ! Ain't worth to be with him if he doesn't want me much ...~ Now, I am in an acting class. I am truly enjoy the way the teachers demonstrate the example of how the acting should be , and I am so admire of his awesome acting . ^__^ I am slowly fantasy of wanting to be an actress in some day. Well, I am little bit an actress, because I had performed/presented it out to the class. I don't know why I feel awkward and feeling not right of being describe as funny girl, goofy one by a chubby girl. Noww..Yea Yea~ I recently make three new friends . They are cool and Yes I judge them lol :P I'm sure my judge is kinda bad and wrong ^^;; Why is so sudden that I get interest on a guy named Johnny already even thought he has a girl friend? He is friendly, nice, and ____ Idk X] lol ~ OH I know 80% - 20% cause of the pimples & the language barrier ! When I talk to him , it seem like I kinda little bit want him to be my boyfriend. Kinda little disappointed of how he is already taken . DON't worry I don't like to be third wheel nor try to make him fall in love with me . I am not a girl who will do that. If he will like me and change his heart to my side . ^.^ That is just be very wonderful .Ahaha! Eh NOTE right~ I will write down the list of things of the topic about What I hate about myself. I hate myself of being timid. I hate myself of being a coward . I hate myself of being a bother ... sometimes not always ! I hate myself of sometimes making unclear sentence that make people don't understand me. I hate myself of making the stupid mistake of over liking the jerks. I hate myself of being all dummy. I hate myself of being an impatient person. I hate myself of interest on someone so fast , but not 100% fall in love 2 them yet ^^ . I hate myself of being a slacker.. sometimes tho' =] . I hate myself of not listening to my parents .. just in some way. I hate myself of being so easy to trust people. I hate myself of doing all those embarrass things that I can't change in that time lol. I hate myself of being too naive, ignorant , and too obedient to my folks in some way. I am out of the words to say . Haha Again~ I am so into fakes nails! HEhe ^^ I just put them on in few hours ago on my nails.
posted at 11:42 PM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Saturday Mid night!! X]
Haha I feel bored of watching the Taiwanese drama called Black & White. It isn't like not an interesting and great drama. I just into more passion lovey dopey romance drama t.v show. Gosh! Last few hours of Friday, I was damn coughing a lot. I think I have some throat problem lol~ I am so lazy that I did not want to wear the mittens and socks in front of me. XP ! I am the person who don't have much of confidence and trust myself less by less. KINDA TIMID ON That & COWARD! HEh >.> I should be more mature of not making some stupid giggle sound and putting the pout faces in front of the acting class. Still, i despite the fact that my damn professor criticized me of that. HAha! What else to say .. I don't know~ I might as well as share the " play " in the stage that I had seen in Spring 2008 of my junior High School year. It called Flora, The Red Manace. HEH! I have the story and the information story in my hand so I would type it out ..eh Hope it isn't prohibited of copy-right thing! XP ~ It has the setting therefore I'll write it first. " We enter a small meeting hall in New York in 1935 Outside, the Depression rages, but inside a play is about to begin. The Work Progress Administration, a program created to provide work for unemployed Americans, has given a troop of young actors just enough money to pull together some scenery and costumes for their production of Flora, the Red Menace. They have taken a few crates, some wooden chairs, a trunk of old clothes and transformed the space into a theater brimming with hope and optimism that defies the economic situation outside. Synopsis time lol " Even though prosperity is just around the corner, bread lines form down the block. The leak outlook doesn't daunt Flora Meszaros, a young fashion illustrator, who has just graduated, determined to change the world. While filling out a job application to be a fashion illustrator at Garrett and Mellick's a leading department store in New York, Flora spots an intense, oddly handsome young artist who speaks with a slight stammer named Harry Toukarian. When he fails to respond to her attempts at conversation, she takes matters into her own hands. Flora tells Harry she has * studio- an old ballroom in the HOtel Segewick - where she rents space to other artist. Flora invites Harry to share space at the studio and counters his plea of poverty by telling him to pay her in apples. A short time later while eating lunch in the park, Harry reveals to Flora he is a Communist and persuasively asks her to join the party. When Flora returns to the studio, she finds she has a job interview with Mr. Stanley, the art director at Garrett and Mellick's. Short on money, but long on pride,she won't accept any offer less than $15 a week. She arrives at Mr. Stanley's office and he tells her the job is hers - for $30 a week. That evening, Harry and a group of comrades meet to discuss the week's activities, Comrade Charlotte, the party zealot who has her own designs on Harry, tells everyone that her week has been unexciting. Flora announces she has obtained a job at Garrett and Mellick's but Charlotte puts a damper on the excitement, pointing out that Garret and Mellick's is not an union shop. Rising to the occasion, Flora promises to collect names within the store of people interested in forming an union. Charlotte goes one step further, calls for a rally in front of the store and declares that Harry shall speak. She personally offers to work with him stammer. Despite the nearly impossible demands of the party and deadlines at the store, Flora and Harry find they are falling in love. On the eve of the rally, Flora plans a Valentine's Day celebration with Harry. When Harry tells Flora Comrade Charlotte has suggested Harry spend that evening working on his speech, Flora is furious, Harry apologizes and leaves. Left alone in the studio, Flora decides to surprise Harry at his apartment with real Valentine neither of them will forget. Act II begins that evening, Kenny and Maggie perform the dance routine they have been preparing for their audition at the Rainbow Room-an audition Flora arranged for them by pretending to be an agent. They are accompanied by Willy on the clarinet. At the same time, on the other side of town , Harry practices his speech in his apartment. Unannounced, Charlotte storms Harry's apartment and gives him a few of her own pointers on public speaking. Flora arrives a short time later and all the best laid plans end in disaster; the evening ends abruptly for everyone. On the day of the rally Flor finds Charlotte has changed the simple rally at Garrette and Mellick's into a picket-line in an act of spite. Knowing there is no way to turn in her artwork without crossing the picket-line- an act which would immediately expel her from the party - She gives the artwork to Willy to take to the store. Mr. Weiss and Elsa are not pleased with Flora's actions. The first test of her newfound determination comes, however, when she realizes she has sent Willy to Garrett and Mellick's with the wrong envelope and has accidentally turned in the list of names of people interested in forming an union. OUtside the store, Harry tries to speak, only the heckled by the crowd. He tosses aside his prepared remarks, speaks from the heart and for the first time the crowd listens. When Flora arrives at the store, Harry realizes she plan to cross the picket-line in order to retrieve the list names. He becomes angry, pointing that crossing thing is an act of disloyalty and tless Flora she is either with them, or against them ..."and if u're against us, you're against me." Flora argues she has put other people's jobs on the line and refuses to look of the world in the black and while terms of the Party. Full aware of the consequences, Flora crosses the line. Once inside, Mr. Stanley's office, Flora pleads her case and sacrifices her own job in order to save this jobs of the other people on the list. Flora returns to the studio just as the artist are leaving to celebrate Kenny and Maggie's new job at the Rainbow Room. harry enters tells Flora that that things aren't going to work out between them. He tells her she'd never be committed to the party the way he is and dislike their shared ambition to change world, they go about their mission in two very different ways. Reluctantly Harry kisses Flora good-bye. Flora is left alone in the studio, momentarily defeated, but determined to pick up the pieces and start again." This is very long to type it all out lol >.<>
Four days week off was alright! So stupid of thinking I can be in a relationship and thought I won't be single in this year and not going to be nineteen years without a damn boyfriend. I am a love sick person who desperately want a boyfriend ma? I hope there is someone with me who want to be with someone who truly love!It is always fail in few days after i thought that person likes me more than a friend . HEH >0< ~ Um.. I really have a question in heart?! How come he doesn't want me , how come he didn't tell me to be with me?! Was I really stupid of making that funny, embarrassed things & make our friend thought I like him a lot?! F*** that .. I never ever thought that i would like him more than my previous crushes. I am kinda slowly learning my Theater Act's class. I suppose to say it will make me gain more confident , courage in public speaking . Ahaha! Um... Friday, I went to ice-skating right?! I can't believe that I was so bad of fell three times on that day . The last one made my wrist hurt like hell and my butt hurt little bit lol. I don't understand why I tripped so much ... It was freaking slippery as my theory :D . IT was just all good . Eh CONTInue this tomorrow lol Okay I'm back lol On Saturday, I met some new friend and old friend who i known in Lincoln Height High School . It was fun as i can't believe. Haha I was so cheerful and talkative on that day . I was guilty that i was late in the arrangement hang out day. Next we still had to wait for the freaking Dash to come so we can go to the Japanese town as Little Tokyo. We took many many picture in there. When we were eating , I ordered the rice with the ramen that it made me so full of it with the chocolate's parfait. I thought we going to play some games in the Arcade but we didn't. It was okayy xD ^__^ We ate the yummy yogurt in the Yogurtland again. Haha X] At the end of the hang out, we rode back the Dash again & waited again . I had of hearing of my friend jokes. I uploaded the pictures in the facebook of the great time. http://facebook.com/DoanSu ^_< I think! Hmm .. SO lazy of being cool & odd off staying home on Sunday and Monday. It was habit of being in the home sweet home .. well Just cause it was the rainy day. Ah! FREAk! I don't damn get why some people loves rainy day so much?! WELL I am seriously don't love rainy day . Sometimes, I had to blame my mother of taking my financial money to provide to my useless brother in Vietnam . It was my property thing ... Heh! I did upset about that but what else can i do?! I was ignorant of not taking my cash on my own. Hmm.. My thought of myself I acted too innocent and childish i guess so it isn't convincing to other people. I will act more mature in the future to promise myself of that goal/objective/victory . Ahaha that what i learn in my acting class.~ XP F*** god, raining is very terrible that it will make my jean got wet . +___+ Haha! Also , I was clumsy of clung to the wall that I made my sweater dirty . Ah! MAy be i am crazy to complain about myself of not having a boyfriend. She persuades me of being in a single life is good. Yes! Kinda right.. When the good mister right comes, it will comes. Hm~ ^.^ Me believe not all the guys are totally jerk. Haha If I'm a nurse, hehe I think I will meet some great handsome doctor in there. lol ^.^
The title is very accurate & descriptive to me. I am half tired and half sleepy. :D lol Seriuosly is .. No lying!I slept twelve thirty last night, and somehow woke up in a while because the downstair noised made me can't sleep smoothly. The holiday break was good i think. I mean I shouldn't hold what i shall not desire of the things that can't happen like it will make my friends around me say you are so greedy in some point. WEll I admit it ahaha?! If it made me feel bad, sux.. I shouldn't think about it anymore. FOr example, my friend invited me to go to her house with three other girls , and I can't make it . They can't drive me to their place so we had some arguing in texting. Then, she even pointed out that I can take the subway (train) . WAT?! By my own person and no one with me & said they will pick me up in their stop? I am like Hell No I can't do it! It is just a diffuclt task to me, also my freaking parents would not want me to go like that. They screamed at me once when i tried to sneak out, and take the Metro traint with a stranger dude to meet with my friends. It was horrible when I got home. lol =/ Yelling like I'm a piece of shit. Haha Wasn't that a few weeks ago of the invitation ?Yes ahaha :P So funny that i questioned myself huh? :P The thing that made me mad , and I feel like Why I should waste time of thinking about.. It is like unhappiness thing so I tell myself not to care about it anymore. If they carpool me, then i will go .. if they can't ... then whatever. One of my friend said I am a chicken .. chicken nudget too . =D lol so right? :P I never grow up when i have my damn mother and father always think of me as a children but not an almost fully adult. Haha I realized that i went to the mall in a few time just for buying the gifts to my siblings ..Well I still have my new shirts, and jean lol. Opps i think I wrote that in the below entry . hehe :P Ok New start in my winter class .. I really having an acting class and my second class is the track and field . =__= Rawr!! lol Eh Am i comfortable with that two classes or satsify with it? I would say one hundred percent not? The crazy thing is I told my damn mommy " I have an English class at 10am." instead of an acting class lol AH Yea? I do lie to my parents when the day i was born . =P Keke...~ Ah I wanna say of what was going on of yesterday, It was ah an interesting day . It just I didn't know I can meet back the dude I know in my previous running class .lol ~ We chatted chatted :] then ended up I joined him of taking the same PE class again. Who says running is fun?! I would say It isn't fun at all. Hm! The reason may be I didn't continue to exercise as running some miles .that why I was damn exhaused and in pain feeling during the time I ran. It was so unbelieveable that the damn couch made us do so exercises. I truly talk to my friends or classmate I have a weak body ..complain about not wanting run anymore. Why I chose it ? Just because I don't want to have an only one class and my mama despite that I spend too much time on the computer at home , so I think I might go well have this class again. After the hard work, I went to gym and just ran in the machine. It was nice ahahha Yeaa.. 4:45 minutes result of doing it. I had some break...this break made my body got attached to or fooling around with my guy friend named Hector. He is nice, sweet, to me. We got so intimated that He kissed me .. Later on , I was doing some stupid things again that I didn't like to say it at loud. THen I just go out of my college; went to the freaking adult night school. New class and new teacher i suppose. Damn It, freaking reading class. I mean I don't really fond to reading , but I just know reading is make us speak and know more things I guess ahaha :P I jus had exhausted Monday .. hm but I didn't like Monday of January eleveth anymore :P ^__^ I made Hector asked me out and He did XD lol Then Yai! No more singleness for me lol .. but there is some cuties around my morning class thought' lol :P Joking.. I won't like two guys at a time. Gosh! Why does a fucking THeater Art lesson have to do so many imaginery story out as an assignment?! YEss~ I am very despite that idea.. drop that class? Naw.. I am lazy to do that lol No more to say since the freaking sign in minutes almost end in the library's computer. so I have to conclude this soon. Bye BYe .. Haha Hope everyone have a great Tuesday.. haha well I going to meet my love one soon hehe ;) ^_< PEace out!
posted at 1:01 PM
Saturday, January 2, 2010
So So Saturday ^__^
Blue BLue, I like blue color too . Haha I know that is random . HAPPY NEW YEar for 2010s. HEhe ^.^ WEll Did i have a good one on the first day of it? I would say It was so so to everyone. The reason is I just stayed home all day on the computer haha =] DId I say I am engaged to it? XD Now I say I am~Hmm, I am agree that I won't be silent much when I am with my parents , and close friends. WHY?! Cause I am the nosy , and talkative girl. Ahaha :D...I mention the previous sentence because I made my parents told me to shut up and said I was talking too much during the Dim Sum time of Wednesday. Haha. We went to Walmart and bought so many many things that I wanted to include like the new heavy green vacumn and one hundred sixty-eight plus taxes wide monitor pc for me. .. Eh, Later on of today, I went out wit my mother. I truly thought we went to the Little Tokyo to shop, bought manga, or sing Karaoke lol ^^;; Oh Well. HAha I kinda mean that i blame for change the location or plan when I went outside of the street to meet her. OH Sigh, she gave me the bad attitudue back and talked back that I can't be quite on the day when my father drove us. LOL XD I laughed at that :P I jus ain't a shy person when it comes to the fimilar people i know. After we got the metro busy, we entered the mall. We purchased the three party dress to my dress, watches to my older sister, brother in-law, and older brothre, next.. I got a jean and stripes shirt . Then we kinda acrossed the eating cour and ate of course.. XD Me and mi madre chose the Panda Express of that Acradia mall in a long time ago. OH My GOd of one thing, May be i was too sleepy that i made my cup of ice water fell down the tray. As a result, my mother blamed on me, yelled at me. Rawr! Hey.. so Do you think yelled at me can solve problem by making the H2O goes back .. NO right? so stop being mad at me lol XP . When i got back home, I had to show it to my older, chubby sister the watches and the dress that we have. She was so picky that she and her husband don't like one of the watch too. It was like ninty something .Gosh XP! Haha Even thought, we are saying that but we still change for the different type of it to her. I don't know what to say anymore .My neck is too tired to write some storie note in this time and this entry. Haha I just created the asking questions site to myself. IT is kinda interesting i think =] I don't mind people to know but just tell who you are .. pleasee lol :D WEll GOod nite and Have a good Sunday~
